How Could You
I couldn't confess to you that i love you
when i have told you time and time again that i don't believe in love
How could you know that I want to be yours
I want to be able to call you mine, but how can I
when i know you deserve so much better
How could you know that I don't want to fuck you
I tell myself that I only have sex with guys I am dating
when I still walk over to your house
How could you tell me that you love me
I'm broken, fat, used up
when did I lose my self-worth
How could I let myself become this
I am stupid, worthless, a fat cow
when did my hell start
How could you not notice the tears in my eyes as I left
I know my eyes were screaming at you, begging you to follow me,
when all you did was wave good-bye
How could I have let myself fall for someone again
I still havn't found the shards of my pathetic heart after the last one left
when his face was a mask of beauty
As I look, I feel the glue slipping, as the few pieces I had found slip away.
I had given you my heart. you took it. fucked it. gave it back without a second look.
You are in my very soul.
I will never forget.
In : Poetry