My mind is the battlefield

Fighting the urge

using all the self-control in my body..

water and vitamins are my diet.

determined to be beautiful

to be the perfect.

wanting beauty

needing food

refusing it.

starving myself

in this quest for perfection......

body breaks down

you can see the bones clearly now,

but STILL i continue

mind forcing me to continue

determined to have the perfect

looking in the mirror

finally understanding....

ana is NOT my fri...

I couldn't confess to you that i love you

when i have told you time and time again that i don't believe in love

How could you know that I want to be yours

I want to be able to call you mine, but how can I

when i know you deserve so much better

How could you know that I don't want to fuck you

I tell myself that I only have sex with guys I am dating

when I still walk over to your house

How could you tell me that you love me

I'm brok...