Final Heartbeat

August 1, 2010
 

(another a7x inspired song written at 5 in the morning. lolz)

 

To much Pain in this life

(sorry for being weak)

to much pain i can't take it

(can't stand knowing i was weak)

couldn't take this life so i left it

(I'm gone)

 ya i know you cared

(but farewell)

 

left this life to find peace on the other side

please pray for me

for peace is hard to come by

I'm gone

 

Don't try to bring me back

(Its to late, it's been done)

I've made up my mind, i don't want to change it

(do you think this was easy?)

 

left this life to find peace on the other side

please pray for me

for peace is hard to come by

 

ALL GONE!

(bottles empty)

ALL DONE!

(waiting for the end)

ALL GONE!

(bottles emptied)

ALL DONE!

(why won't this end?)

 

left this life to find peace on the other side

please pray for me

for peace is hard to come by

 

There, It's almost over now

(clock ticking down my final heartbeats)

breathing slows and my eyes dim

(your face is the last one i see)

 

I'm gone

left this life to find peace on the other side

please pray for me

for peace is hard to come by

 

Dragon's Dance

August 1, 2010

(i no its not very good, but whatever. it is wat it is. tell me wat you think)


Snuff out this life

steal my soul and hide it

throwing away the key.

 

NO.WAY.OUT.

I am but a shell of my former self

lost forever

lost to all

 

This is what fate has chosen

just not what i intended

choking on my own burning flesh

lost forever

lost to all

never to be found

 

The darkness burning

burning as it seaps out of my pores

i'm still here

body still intact

can you tell that i am gone?

NO!...


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The Perfect

July 11, 2010
Food is my enemy

My mind is the battlefield

Fighting the urge

using all the self-control in my body..

water and vitamins are my diet.

determined to be beautiful

to be the perfect.

wanting beauty

needing food

refusing it.

starving myself

in this quest for perfection......

body breaks down

you can see the bones clearly now,

but STILL i continue

mind forcing me to continue

determined to have the perfect

 

looking in the mirror

finally understanding....

ana is NOT my fri...


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How Could You

July 11, 2010
How could you know that I'm falling for you

I couldn't confess to you that i love you

when i have told you time and time again that i don't believe in love

 

How could you know that I want to be yours

I want to be able to call you mine, but how can I

when i know you deserve so much better

 

How could you know that I don't want to fuck you

I tell myself that I only have sex with guys I am dating

when I still walk over to your house

 

How could you tell me that you love me

I'm brok...


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Hanging on a tread by Lauren Menefee

July 11, 2010
No I'm not worthit
I'm really not,
And i shouldn't have even tried...
See ya go me!
Another failed attempt,
Exactly see, I still try
It's just a bad habit.
I'm hopelessly stuck,
I feel so alone,
I try to help out but it just can't be done.
I don't mean to fail, really I don't,
I'm sorry I hurt you.
"You haven't you know?"
Yeah right,
You know I have.
I fail every day like I always do...
"How?"
How have I failed...
Ha that's rich.
Oh come on, don't act like you don't know.
Tonight was awful,
I mean what a blo...

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Knoxville
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